Goodbye 2015, welcome 2016

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Dear 2015,
I now it’s difficult but you have to leave.
I hate to do this but it’s needed.
I wanted to tell you that, even if I didn’t tell you, you weren’t as terrible as I thought. I have to say that I had fun with you and I will remember forever all those things I did with you.
Sometimes I was sad, others I was too happy; I had been silly and also smart (just a few times).
I know I haven’t told you enough but I’m very happy for what we’ve been through.
I know you don’t like that 2016 will take your place but you did the same with 2014… It has to be like this and we can’t change it.

Dear 2016,
You’re just born and you don’t quite know how to get on with life but we’ll show you.
Please be kind with all that people who have problems and try to help them solve them… it’s not easy and I know but try to help someone somehow.
Last years weren’t that bad but you can always be better.
Hope you will be a good year,
Me

P. S.
Happy new year to everyone!!

I am a big coward

It’s the second year I’m in High School. I changed school and met new classmates. I’ve always hated most of my old classmates partially because it seamed they hated me and partially because I couldn’t stand them. I had some friends but with the others I just pretended to be their friend. A week ago I left the class’ group on Whatsapp (one year and a half is enough: I wanted nothing to do with them) but then, a few days ago, I left another group when someone asked when we could meet. Right after I left, one of the few to be nice, texted me. I haven’t heard from her since last year and she started asking me things that she was supposed to asked me last year like “How are your new classmates?” or “How is your new class?” A little late uh? I really liked her and, before I knew my actual best friends we were very close and it hurts that now we don’t text each other unless something forces us. I don’t want a friendship to end like this, just fading slowly but now it’s too late. And even if our friendship faded quite an year ago it was painful to understand it all in once.

Years ago I wouldn’t just leave those groups because I was too scared of what people would think. But now I didi it (because I know that probably I will never see them again). But I really can’t tell them how they made me feel at school or that now I am changed and I am not the same persone that they knew. I (hope) am better but I, even so, I can’t tell people what I really think and this makes me feel helpless.

P. S. I’m thinking of doing one of the 30 days challenge but I’m still not sure